Tekkaman_Dead's Xanga

Saturday, October 30, 2004

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 12:55:43 GMT

xanga discontinued.

http://www.NGsters.com/CHERRY

wanna see my birthday list? no? too bad xP

Saturday, April 12, 2003

Sat, 12 Apr 2003 04:50:32 GMT

i read this poem on my friend ricky's xanga and i'm reposting it here because it expresses what i don't know how to say about somebody that i know.

pale sand spins in windy torrents
while particles scrape the eye
tears tumble down my face too slowly
to push the grains aside
these lips beseech the sky above
laced fingers plead for days
when showers soothe the thirsty ground
and block the day-star's gaze
clear blue you roil into black
when first you hear my plea
you bid the glassy droplets fall
by stormy fierce decree
smells of expectant earth arise
to meet the rain that drops
toward a pair of outstretched hands
and withered yellow crops
droplets sate the soil's hunger
when to its throat they plunge
erasing signs of dire thirst
as parchedness they expunge
you let the dust absorb its fill
then wave the rains away
the sun returns to nurture life
in the glory of the day
as showers surely bring new flowers
sprouts pushed through the sand
because you dared to rain for me
my days are spring again

--ricky m.

this is reposted in honor of the most wonderful person i've ever met. you are remarkably talented in all tasks that you undertake. you are a well of endless joy and being around you is the brightest part of each day. i know this is ridiculously trite, but i felt like i needed to announce my appreciation even if you don't realize i'm referring to you.

Monday, April 07, 2003

Mon, 07 Apr 2003 17:12:44 GMT

This was reposted from Diana's xanga, who won my "best entry of the week" award.

For those that don't know what marketing means, I offer you the following...The difference between PR, marketing, advertising and sales.

Perhaps the following analogies will help clear it up:

You see a handsome guy at a party. You go up to him and say, "I'm Fantastic in bed." -- That's Direct Marketing.

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a handsome guy. One of your friends goes up to him and pointing at you says, "She's fantastic in bed." -- That's Advertising.

You see a handsome guy at a party. You go up to him and get his Telephone number. The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'm fantastic in bed." -- That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy. You get up and straighten your dress. You walk up to him and pour him a drink. You say, "May I," and reach up to straighten his tie brushing your breast lightly against his arm, and then say, "By the way, I'm fantastic in bed." -- That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy. He walks up to you and says, "I hear you're fantastic in bed." -- That's Brand Recognition.

You're at a party and see a handsome guy. You talk him into going home with your friend. -- That's a Sales Rep.

Your friend can't satisfy him so he calls you. -- That's Tech Support.

You're on your way to a party when you realize that there could be handsome men in all these houses you're passing. So you climb onto the roof of one situated toward the center and shout at the top of your lungs, "I'm fantastic in bed!" -- That's Spam

Thursday, March 13, 2003

Thu, 13 Mar 2003 06:43:04 GMT

i've been waiting for a good day
i've been holding back long enough
i've been hurting to tell you some things
it's not the falling of the temperature
that's making all our bones run cold
it's the breeze you make
the presence felt when you're around me

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ik denk dat ik gevallen voor u ben. wat zou ik moeten doen? is dit liefde?

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--edit--

Cherry, when it comes to temptation you're a Hedonist

It has become apparent that the word "no" is not one you use too often. In fact, it seems you just might have replaced it with "sure," "pour it on," and "I'll take it." As a Hedonist, you probably see no reason to put limits on pleasure. When the little angel of your conscience arrives on your shoulder to challenge your indulgent side, it's usually knocked off by that little devil who's never too far away from your decisions.

(hey, and we were just talking about hedonism in english class too! maybe the way i answered the questions was a bit biased by the fact that i love dorian gray so very much. i wish i could be dorian gray. i get the feeling i would have handled immortality much better. i would have kept basil around.)

Cherry, you're a Type 8 - The Leader

Friends, family, and colleagues probably appreciate your heroic strength and impassioned inner drive. They're also apt to know that when they come to you with a problem, you can be counted on for strength and guidance. As a Leader, you're likely to be seen as a powerful and protective individual with a natural born sense of management in one form or another.

Toni Morrison, an award-winning author and recognized cultural leader in the African American community, and Martin Luther King, Jr., leader of the American civil rights movement, were also type 8s.

This means that compared to the eight other Enneagram types, you have a strong sense of willpower and self-confidence. In fact, you're the kind of resourceful, decisive person who is often committed to making things happen

Cherry, your values help make you a Resourceful Independent

You know that in this world you need to look out for number one. As a result, you're more prepared than most people are to do whatever is necessary to take care of yourself. In fact, you likely expend significant effort to see that your needs and best interests are met, so long as the actions are within your ethical boundaries. People like you typically feel strongly about following through on their promises, as well as knowing how to take either credit or blame when it is due. Overall, you're self-reliant and willing to take responsibility for your own welfare.

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instead of writing the dbq that's due tomorrow, i was taking those quizzes. they're frighteningly addictive. i never discover anything new about myself, but i always hope that i do. it's like watching the commercial for comcast digital cable where a scene is paused and a car is stuck in midair. the characters in the car are talking about how they never complete the jump no matter how many times the scene is played. that was a silly analogy, but i like that commercial.

speaking of commercials, have you ever seen that dell commercial where the intern turns out the lights and all the night support tech crew is still there? as i was watching it today, i noticed what great diction was used in the commercial. i don't remember exactly what was said, but just that it was said very well. there was something about award-winning service, being there for customers when they have a question, and not being afraid of the dark. except for schneider - he's afraid of the dark. he needs to pull it together.

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"i'm a fountain of blood in the shape of a girl." --bachelorette, by bjork

everybody should download that song. bjork's voice is so distinctive. there's something about it that makes it sound so plaintive (i almost wrote plaintiff. that makes me sad). it could almost be grating, except she draws out her words in such a way that it takes the harshness away. once you hear bjork, you'll know that voice whenever she sings. it's like the lead singer in the smashing pumpkins, except that his voice is more annoying. the best that he ever did was in the beginning of the song "bullet with butterfly wings" where he says, "the world is a vampire." it sounds sinister and cynical at the same time. it is the sound of evil sneering at me. i love it.

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swirlies for brian, b/c i know that brian likes swirlies. contrary to popular opinion, brian does NOT like toaster strudels. he feels that they are as evil as mr. jones. if a person resembling brian says this is not true, pay no mind to him. it is just a little asian ninja impersonating our dear friend. you should kick him, but be careful. he probably has a ninja star poised to slice and dice.

Friday, March 07, 2003

Fri, 07 Mar 2003 04:20:24 GMT

Cherry, your unconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.

Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.

It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.

You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.

With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.

Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core.

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Cherry, when it comes to psychic abilities, you have an unusually strong talent in the area of Remote Viewing.

This means you have an uncanny ability to travel great distances with your mind, to virtually any location, and actually get a true glimpse at what is located there. The best conditions for traveling space with your mind, or remotely viewing another location, are silence and a calm state of mind. Even without these conditions, you managed to show considerable talent in this area, which is called remote viewing. This skill is phenomenally valuable and has been used by institutions such as the government to help in covert operations designed to retrieve information about the whereabouts of a criminal or to learn about the operations of another country. But mostly this can help in practical, everyday ways, such as instinctively grabbing an umbrella before making a trip to the next town over even though you had no way of knowing that it was raining there.

While your strongest psychic talent is Remote Viewing, Emode also analyzed your psychic strengths in:

Retrocognition: The ability to know what happened in the past.
Clairvoyance: The ability to "see" the unknown.
Precognition: The ability to know what will happen in the future.
Telepathy: The ability to tune into others' thoughts.

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Cherry, you're a Shark!

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Shark which means you are a Seeker / Success. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Seeker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.

That means you've got a robust love of life and a killer instinct. Chances are you hate rules, and don't plan on getting old. You're flexible and friendly on top of being innovative and smart. In short, people respect you.

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Cherry, your best quality shines through in how Intelligent you are!

The fact that you're a smart person who is more able to understand complex concepts than many other people are really draws people to you! But that's not the only thing. Your answers on the test indicate you're generally a self-assured and confident person who has the strength to handle difficult situations. You are an inventive and creative person who usually has an abundance of imagination and ideas, too.

Monday, March 03, 2003

Mon, 03 Mar 2003 22:54:55 GMT

2002-2003 L-Town MT

Monday, February 17, 2003

Mon, 17 Feb 2003 01:02:41 GMT

i stole this from justine. why am i filling out one of these again? it's better than reading tartuffe. also, i was hoping that in the course of answering petty little questions about my inner self, i could stumble across some brilliant discovery. just hoping.

1. What's your name? cherry.
2. What state do you live in? home of tomatoes and cranberries, pine barrens and suburban sprawl, welcome to new jersey
3. What color is your hair? i wish i could say something interesting here. not anymore. now it's just brown.
4. What color are your eyes? just brown, again
5. Do you wear glasses/contacts? yeah, contacts
6. How old are you? 18
7. Are you female or male? i dunno, i'm pretty androgynous
8. What race are you? asian pride, azn prayde, china powah, however you wanna say it
9. Who is your favorite actor/actoress? i don't get enough media exposure to be able to tell
10. What are your favorite movies? see above
11. Do you have any pets? i wish i did
12. How many? ditto
13. What are they and what's their names? you can stop asking me about my non-existent pets now
14. How many people are on your buddy list? 228
15. How many of those people are online? 32
16. Who are they? oh man...andrew, ben, dan, eli, eric, abilash, lisa, jose, jay, emily, peter, dan, steve, tina, jerry, brian, ronny, jon, jay, leah, leo, alex, mike, lauren, me, chintu, byron, mike, jackie, alice, marco, robbie, james, sandeep, eugene, will, stephanie, (i forgot this person's name), david, stephanie, caspar, emily, jon, jamie, dave, sam, bonnie, mila, tom, neil, diana, vince, paul, paul, eric, pheon, me, amy, alan, june, john, katie...in the time that i typed that up, some people may have signed on / off, so it may not total 32 ///.-;;
17. What are your favorite colors? ooh, green!
18. What is your favorite food? so many choices!
19. What is your favorite drink? see above
20. What kind of soap do you use? whatever we get from the hotels. we have so many bars of hotel soap that we never buy our own.
21. What kind of shampoo do you use? the cheapest one!
22. Are you nails painted? never! yuck, how distasteful!
23. What color? eiw
24. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? it's been so long that i can't remember.
25. If you could talk to anyone right now, who would it be? david
26. What are you wearing? maroon gym shorts, white socks, nj council shirt, mid-atlantics sweatshirt, and all the necessities underneath.
27. Who is your favorite singer(s)? oh oh oh...///.^ i love alex band
28. What are you listening to now? california girl, by lucky 7
29. Who are you talking to now? nobody, i'm away.
30. Have you ever loved? i love cheese
31. Are you in love now? cheese is my dearest, one and only true love
32. What did you eat today? well, the last thing i ate was a carrot from a pot of beef stew.
33. When was the last time you took a bath/shower? yesterday. it's very important to shower before a mock trial cuz it's good luck. this means that if your water system is undergoing renovations, then you go to your neighbor's house and ask to shower. trust me. bobby did it and we won. there's no doubting the superstitions.
34. Do you have a bedtime? no
35. What size bed do you have? a little one. i dunno what size it is.
36. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? i love me stuffed animals! of course i'd sleep with them!
37. How many pillows are on your bed? a blue a brown a blue a brown...two
38. Do you liking filling these out? sure i do
39. What time is it? 8:53 pm

wtf? there's no 40th question? why couldn't there just be one more for the sake of roundedness? ARGH!!!

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L-Town MT 2003 County Champions!

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let it be the start of something new, you and i. nevermind what you remember of me or what i know of you. i need you because you are like me. i know you understand what that feels like. it will be something new.

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

Wed, 22 Jan 2003 00:41:22 GMT

in order to understand this entry, first read leo's last couple of entries and all comments belonging to them. everything written by somebody else is in red, and my response is in black. have fun!

"i think that if people like Leo know how to spell and use punctuation then they should write how ever they want unlike you who still have to practice just because you cant get it right."

i agree that i if people like leo know how to spell and use punctuation, then they can write however they'd like. however, you didn't address the fact that leo doesn't know how to spell and use punctuation. he can barely make coherent sentences...i realize that asking him to write them down is a bit much. that's okay. i accept inferiority in the world as a way to define my superiority.

"as for cherry-popper over there, how about you take your problems and stick them straight up your candy ass. (and no I don’t mean your face, even though people might not tell the difference between them) and speaking of idiocy and intelligence, what the hell is "///.^"?! is that retardish for "i am a stupid ho"? i mean i wouldn’t know so im asking you since you seem to be fluent in both english and retardish"

i don't understand how you feel you have a right to talk about my "problems." funny thing is, i don't have problems. if you wanted to talk about them, you must've made them up in your delusional little mind. also, i can't remember the last time i talked to you, or even saw you anywhere, so i don't see any reason for your silly vendetta against me. is it cuz i made fun of leo? if that's the case, you're better off bashing your head against the wall in an attempt to gain an IQ greater than 10 than trying to say that i'm a baser person than leo. it's less futile that way. ///.^ maybe if you did talk to me, you'd understand what that means. it was brilliant for you to assert the idea that all retarded people speak the same language. gosh,you're so smart!

"Iriana, please do us all a favor and kindly shut the fuck up. Thank you, you worthless scrap of frog shit - no one likes you, go back to your shack with your 3 year old mom or whatever the hell you were bitching about on your Xanga. No one cares about grammar, honestly - this is his own website so how about you put your Grammar Police uniform on and find another webpage, kthxstfu."

i don't remember lauren ever insisting on having leo use correct grammar. she was just pointing out exactly how dumb he was, which wasn't really necessary because we all knew from the beginning. at least i did...maybe you missed it b/c his dumb comments shocked the living shits out of you.

"I'm pretty sure this Leo kid could spell just as well as you and have correct grammar to boot. Hell, why do you even care? Do you have a hidden fetish for people with perfect grammar and spelling, and seeing people like Leo post gramatically incorrect sentences turns you off? I mean, shit, put down your Cheetos, take a few steps back from your computer, take a breath and take a walk - but don't forget to put on your paper bag because I know you're horifically FUGLY in real life. (it's ok, everyone has their own issues; you just have to deal with your stupidity and disfigured face)"

(as stated above, leo can not spell and punctuate properly. it is clearly beyond his mental capacity.) well aren't you a lesson in shallow values? if somebody is ugly, does that mean you don't like them? in that case, you better stay away from trying to defend leo b/c he's about as attractive as a naked mole rat. do you find leo attractive? that's pretty gross.

"Oh, and I think I said it before but I'll say it again; you know, just to be sure: Shut the fuck up and troll somewhere else, you imperfect moronic cumwad."

OH NO!!! there's somebody who is imperfect? the world must be coming to an end!!! to point out the epitome of imperfection, just look in a mirror. that's okay, don't despair for humanity yet. lauren and i have superfluous amounts of positive traits to make up for your lack of them.

"And listen, "Cherry-popper" AKA Tekkafool, I'll cut YOU a deal - You shut the hell up and go back to fingerpainting and I promise you that the government will keep sending you welfare checks to support your poor-ass family."

fingerpainting? fool? now i'm really hurt. and my poor family? i'm gonna cry! the world is ending b/c it's become a sin to be ugly, to fingerpaint, to be poor, and to be imperfect.

"Latino, I think "///.^" is supposed to be her trademark - oooh, it's so cool, I can make symbols as my trademark. Here, I made one for you, Tekka: ..|..

You like it? I think Irinia would try and analyze my trademark, saying something like "I believe that symbol represents Gricksym's true inner feelings about you, Cherry. But I then again, I can't really tell because the eyeholes in my paperbag are too small," right Iretard?"

nice trademark. why do you have four balls?

"I think talking to a wall would yield a much more intellectual conversation than speaking with Cherry in real life, mainly because Cherry's breath smells like fish (I told you to stop carpet munching). I bet a conversation with Tekka would go something like this:

Gricksym: Hi, Cherry-popper

Tekka: HAELLO DID U REED LEO FIGZ WEBSIT DID HE SAY NETHING ABOWT MEEE OMG I NEED 2 NO SO BAD DO U NO??///

G: Umm...

T: PLZ TELL ME I NEED 2 NO CUZ I HAB NO LIF BUT 2 FLAME HIM 2 BOOST MY ALREADY LOW SELFESTEEM PZPLZPLZPLZPLLZP

G: Oh fuck, your breath smells like fish. Have you been eating some Lauren pie again?

T: YES NOW TELL EM ZPZLPZPLZPLZPLZ DID LEO POST NETHNG NEW1111

G: Ok, I'm leaving now. Bye. Bitch

And there you have it, a "normal" conversation with Cherry. Tekka, I have a suggestion for you: You better start acting right before you get smacked right, because you aren't going to last very long in the real world with such a hateful attitude towards everything. Then again, what can you expect from corner hoes except hearing them scream "sex 4 monee plz!!!!!" and "i suk for fifteen dollerz!!!!!" down the block."

good job showing what a conversation with me would be like. i think you got me confused with the resident gnome population in your head though. you might wanna get it checked out. if you knew me at all, you'd realize that i never write like that. you'd also know that it's more likely for you to become a street prostitute than i. of course, why would you care to be correct? made-up insults are your specialty anyway.

"And before I leave, I have a message for Cherry & Lauren: You're both fucking morons; it's too bad your parents didn't strangle you and flush you incredibly retarded shitbags down the toilet while they had the chance...the world would've been a much better place without you people stinking the air up with your stupidity and fish scent. Good bye, I hope I never meet you "people" in real life because I'd have to gouge my eyes out, unless you guys are so ugly that my eyeballs would just explode upon making visual contact."

so in the end, you finally acknowledge that you have never met us. there goes all the merit of your great insults. as for "stinking the air up with your stupidity and fish scent," it's pretty clear to me that the stench is from you. you don't like fish? you should eat it more often. it's brain food, you know. you obviously got none as a child. you obviously still get none. you still believe that we smell funny? since you say that you've never met us, how can you smell us? great logic there, kiddo. you must've known it was us cuz you smelled us from a mile away? is that what you say? well i'm impressed that you can match people to their xangas by their smell. kudos to you.

i am altogether unimpressed by the combined IQ of leo and his defenders. i thought it would be higher than a pencil sharpener's, but once again, i am disappointed. shucks.

Friday, January 17, 2003

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 03:29:08 GMT

this article was given to me by ben. it was mentioned on david's xanga and i felt it would be worthwhile to post it so others could read it. it's so depressing; who wouldn't want to read this?

Bananas could split for good

Edible bananas may disappear within a decade if urgent action is not taken to develop new varieties resistant to blight.

A Belgian scientist leading research into the fruit loved by millions, and a staple for much of the world's poor, has warned that diseases and pests are steadily encroaching upon crops.

The problem is that the banana we eat is a seedless, sterile article which could slip the way of its predecessor which was wiped out by blight half a century ago.

But Dr Emile Frison, who heads the French-based International Network for the Improvement of Banana and Plantain (INIBAP), says the biotechnology and genetic manipulation it might take to save it could put off consumers with GM concerns.

The Cavendish banana now being eaten across the globe lacks genetic diversity, he argues in an article in New Scientist magazine, and its survival is threatened by:

Panama disease, caused by a soil fungus, which wiped out the Gros Michel variety in the 1950s
Black Sigatoka, another fungal disease which has reached global epidemic proportions
Pests invading plantations and farms in central America, Africa and Asia alike.

New Scientist compared the current threat to bananas to the potato blight which caused the devastating Irish famine of the 1840s.

GM fears

Fungicides are proving increasingly ineffective against the diseases, and black Sigatoka especially.

"As soon as you bring in a new fungicide, they develop resistance," Dr Frison said.

"One thing we can be sure of is that the Sigatoka won't lose in this battle."

A global consortium of scientists led by Dr Frison last year announced plans to sequence the genetic blueprint of the banana within five years.

They will focus on largely inedible wild bananas, which are full of hard seeds, since many of these are resistant to black Sigatoka.

But the team's work is being hampered by a lack of support from the large producers, who fear that consumers will not accept a GM banana.

The Belgian scientist, who is based in Montpellier in southern France, pointed out that the research would be directed towards bananas eaten in Africa, where consumption is up to 50 times greater than that in a nation like Great Britain.

"Work on the banana genome will be concentrated on finding ways to improve the varieties on which Africans depend for their survival, rather than the one you and I buy off supermarket shelves," he said.

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

Wed, 15 Jan 2003 23:30:11 GMT

so sunday the 12th was my birthday. i had a grand celebration with my dearly beloved mock trial book. about 9000 people had their birthdays that day too. when i heard that statistic in 7th grade, i stopped feeling special about it. also, after you've had more than 10 birthdays, they just lose their appeal. this one was a little, tiny bit special though. i'm 18 now. i can buy cigarettes, pose in porno, vote, be sued for statutory rape, enter into legal contracts, order stuff from the tv, and other such wonderful things. i'm excited. really. can't you tell?

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it's past the deadline of submitting college application material, but i'm still not finished. i handed in my last transcript request two days ago and mr. david has yet to grade my research paper for me to send in to cornell. being late doesn't bother me too much. cornell claims to have a multiple week backlog anyway. i'm hoping that my lateness will add to my already-very-special application.

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i thought i had come to grips with the fact that not everybody's mock trial team is as enthusiastic as we are. i recently talked to albert and determined that he's a pretty decent lawyer. i failed to remind myself that people like albert are not the norm before i went to see david's mock trial team. i wasn't counting on being impressed, but i wasn't expecting to be disappointed either. i don't like to see people floundering with open-ended questions.

the very short mock trial meeting ended and mother couldn't truncate her work day to come pick me up, so i asked david for some mercy and shelter at his house. when i arrived at his house, i knew i had chosen the right dark-colored attire that day in order to greet his mostly-white, happily-shedding cat. when i get a cat, i'll try to get a dark one, like tian's. that way, dark hair on my clothing can be attributed to my shedding rather than a messy room.

nothing significant was talked about. i expected that. i left at 6.

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midterms are coming up next week on wednesday, thursday, and friday.
study - european history, chemistry
glance over - accounting, french, calculus
not study - english

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do you care if i don't know what to say?
will you sleep tonight, or will you think of me?
will i shake this off? pretend it's all okay?
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is.
"there is", by boxcar racer

i go to school and i run and play
i tell the kids that it's all okay
i like to laugh so my friends won't know
when the bell rings i just don't wanna go home
...
promises mean everything when you're little
and the world is so big
i just don't understand how
you can smile with all those tears in your eyes
when you tell me everything is wonderful now
...
i don't wanna hear you say
that i will understand someday
i don't wanna hear you say
we both have grown in a different way
i don't wanna meet your friends
and i don't wanna start over again
i just want my life to be the same
just like it used to be
some days i hate everything
i hate everything
everyone and everything
please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
"wonderful", by everclear

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